我希望，我和你最终会等于彩虹，在雨过天晴后。 只是，这场雨下好久... ♡

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10:42 PM

The summary of yesterday's chalet!

Weather was hell hot. Bff & i went to a chinese conveniece shopChangi Village to help the guys buy some balacan sambal chilli. Memories over there. Remember? You guys getting some stuffs for the chalet,and we were considering whether to buy a kite or not. :']

Okay back to the post,bought cooling drinks for ourselves before heading to the chalet venue which is just nearby. Cant tolerate the crazy hot weather.

Arrived at the chalet venue:

Like a mad woman i know! hahaha.

Say hi to my bff Melissa & Jianxing 老大!

Looks very awesome,right?

lovin the villa style!

Our bbq pit area within the villa.

Internally:

Spacious bathroom,with a spa area inside. And stylish furnitures in the house.

Bff cant resist this cute bed-like rest area. But speaking frankly,its mad comfy!

Photos session w the girls.

Jianxing trying to disrupt us!

The bffs.

Slack around having jokes and stuffs..

Then...headed out with bff to Changi Village again in the evening to get things for the bbq.Walked there!

Heavy!!!

All the whiskey~

Movies in the late night! Horror/thriller movies to make ourselves getting paranoid. lol.

So our dear class rep, Billy Ong went drunk with his Johnie Walker. zzzz

Didnt took much photos with my phone. Regretted! Shall have another chalet there someday? :)

Changi village,

Where you were happily having your lunch & we had really weird-tasting sugarcane drinks from the market...

Where you idiotically say you felt shy eating cause im not eating...

Where we were at the convenience shop with your friends...

Where we cab to the chalet nearby...

And you know what? Our chalet was just beside the one where we went...

The same bus stop where we waited our bus to leave the place for dinner...

The memories in the bus...

Tampines mall where we have dinner at,strolling around the mall to decide where to eat...

Tampines interchange where we were taking bus to Yishun after dinner...

Everything...everywhere reminds me of you.

Missing you hell lots,but you never know.

Some snaps of myself while waiting to meet bff.

7:39 PM

8:50 AM

Been sick since friday's afternoon.

Haven recover yet...

Fever come and go,come and go.

Refusing to see doctor.

Got really emotional.

Im just a stubborn little bitch ya? Haha. Such a badass that made people worried. Sick like nobody's business these few days. No appetite. Puke whateva i consume. be it bread or water. Proper meals? Cant even make myself consume a proper meal. been on empty stomach these few days, stomach rejecting all the food taken. Still can puke even no food taken...liquid from my stomach i guess. Being sick is a torture. like hell.. knees joints felt weak too. felt so weak every single day. Always thinking that seeing a doctor is a waste of money,but everyone says must see doctor. Eh,let me tell you why i think so. You goes to the clinic. see doc for 5 mins. money flies and awful medicine given. Sometimes you recovered AFTER taking the medicine,sometimes you recover BEFORE you take the medicine. Another thing is, since i taken the medicine they gave previously and cant recover,will i recover after consulting the doctor and probably being given the SAME medicine like again? so...conclusion is i dont think i wanna consult a doctor. i know im stubborn. I hope i dont die off like this. If i die off,the only sorry thing is probably making my parents sad... Sorry if im gone,thanks for the 20+ years of care and love. Thanks Daddy and Mummy. Sorry if i ever made you all angry or sad. But i really love you all. If... if im gone suddenly,please dont be sad. Just in case,this time round,im gone because of this crazy fever or smth...All my dearest,please take care of yourself and forget about me. In case...just in case,im gone, Goodbye my dearests. Thanks god i've you guys in my life. Thats enough. :']

Remembered i got my last words written previously?

Take care people. Goodbye...

3:16 PM

First paper of Common Test down.

One more to go tmr and awaiting for last lap of examinations of my three-years-polylife .

#foreverlastminutemugging

6:04 PM

Feeling emotional right now.

For the whole day,i shall say.

Physically & Emotionally tired.

T.I.R.E.D

(Tried.Ignorance.Reminded.Emotional.Dying.)

Doesn't feel alright now... almost cried when im on my way home from work.

Just feels really tired,especially that my monthly affairs visited me and made me super weak.

Tired to dealt with people that comes into my life.

Hate it.

Just want a simple life.

Felt like a bitch.

Hurting someone because of someone...and giving false hope.

[不要对谁特别好，也不要对谁特别不好 ♥]

"Im really sorry,but i just wanna be friends for now,thats all.

Maybe you dont wanna be friends,like you said..but thats all we could be.

I dont wanna take you for granted. You're nice,and i really appreciated the way you've been treating me,giving in to me always,and doting on me. But,sometimes i just dont feels right. Maybe im picky or what..i dunno..i really have no idea what i really want... That's why i told you not to waste time on me,dont take me more than a friend...Sorry. "

Maybe one day i might regret for not being with you,but at least i wont hurt you further.

Sincerely hope that we can still stay as friends.

Things that you yearn for will never be yours.

What's being offered to you,is something/someone you never aim to want.

I wanted the one who hurt me the most..

But i hurt the one who wanted me more than he do.

To love,or to be loved?

Im fickled-minded.

I dont know what i want.

Or maybe,im still waiting for him.

Can i just be a little girl for once? Cry with no people thinking im mad,cry like nobody business and get consoled. Just wanna be a small little girl right now...

11:41 PM